Awkward Run In

It finally happened, I was at the same party as my super-ex boyfriend. I say “super,” not because he was fabulous but because he broke my heart in a million (maybe a billion) pieces. Only now, after a year and half post break up can I appreciate what a jerk he has become. I like to think I was love blind to how toxic he was. He used my awesomeness to counter how mean he could be to himself and those around him. (That’s another analysis of emotions that I’m not quite ready for yet!)

Anyway, we were both invited to a mutual friend’s farewell party. She’s one of the loveliest people I know so of course I’m going to her party. While, who is the first person he sees when he walks in the door? THIS GIRL. And do you want to know what he said to me? HE said, “Who do you know here?” Uh, what? Who do I know here? Who DO YOU KNOW? Idiot.

Now to me, those are fighting words. Bring it. So what did I do? I made sure I was the life of the party. I talked my pretty little heart out to everyone I could and pranced around laughing and smiling the while night. I made friends with a few people and continued to have a blast. Eat that stupid face. I can be nice and cordial up to a point, after that, it’s game on.  He ended up leaving well before I did. He then sent a text stating how awkward he felt. Too bad hot shot! I’m tried of feeling guilty when I see him. We ended on his terms so what is a girl to do? Move on, enjoy life, and laugh her heart out.  Rock on sisters.

 

J

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New Motto- Take it. Own it. Rock it.

I’ve been having a rough time at work lately.  Basically, I have been incredibly stressed and busy because our annual meeting is right around the corner.  Granted, I love being busy…..I love the go, go, go and thrill of getting everything done.  But, for some reason this year, I’ve been feeling really bitter lately towards the amount of work I am getting done and producing compared to others in my area.

While people have chimed in and suggested I talk to my boss, I just don’t feel comfortable doing that.  It isn’t that I can’t handle the work load, but I almost feel as though I am being taken for granted.  I want to continue to prove myself as a hard worker which is why I have created my new motto.  I’m not interested in giving up tasks and I want to continue to take more on and gain more ownership of things.  So here it is…

Take it.  Own it.  Rock it.

I recommend we all live by this and hope it will motivate you to stop being bitter.  A little wooo-saaaa and move on.

Ray

I think I have a crush…

This past weekend while hanging out with Ray, I spotted a very attractive man. I mean, jaw dropping gorgeous and he was looking right at me. I was absolutely swooning. Ask Ray! I acted like a complete moron. I reverted back to a 5th grader who has discovered liking someone for the first time. I’m talking full-on giggle fest. We’re a few days out from that now and I am embarrassed and still giggling.

What happened you might ask? Well, nothing because I was too chicken to ask him for his number. He is a bartender and obviously couldn’t be too distracted by a lady flirting with him on a busy Saturday night but we did exchange names. Now I realize that he might have been a friendly guy hoping to make a few extra dollars by being great but to heck with all that. I thought he was cute and I want his number dang it!

What do I do? Can’t I just do the obvious and pine away for a dream boat that I made up in my head? Or next time I’m there and he’s there, pluck up the courage to ask him for his number? Thoughts? Do I let this slide as a fantasy or roll with it? I have the giggles again, please excuse me.

Giggles McGoo aka J

A Time to Try New Things…Because of Peer Pressure

I am part of our organization’s Worklife Enhancement Committee.  The committee has decided to start a running club which is going to be a place of support and advice sharing.  I wasn’t really sure about joining the group since I don’t really run.  I actually haven’t done any distance running since Junior year in college and that was because my dance team was being punished.

Due to peer pressure from both of my bosses I have signed up for my first 5K.  My Senior Director has elected to sponsor me so now it is time to start training.  I plan to do a couch to 5K program and get my training sessions in before going to work.  I typically ride the elliptical for 20 minutes in the am so instead I will get outside and run (assuming the weather cooperates).  I’d love to get any advice/training programs from you!  So please share 🙂

On a side note: The Penguin is really excited to help me train…but that makes me really nervous.  I have no idea if I will be a good or a bad runner and I definitely don’t want him to see me struggling.  The relationship is too new for me to show weakness!  Wish me luck on this new endeavor.  I’m nervous, but excited all at the same time.

Ray

Grammys

Did you guys watch the Grammys the other night? Holy moly, it was pretty good this year. I personally, loved the fashion and music. I like that absolutely no one paid attention to the dress code memo. Ladies, if you got it, I guess you better flaunt it! Good lord!! So much under breast was showing, at least they adhere to the rules, no side breast!

There were a few cringe worthy acceptance speeches too but alas, one should always expect that during awards’ season. I personally appreciated Adele’s speech–simple and concise. ROCK IT GIRL. FUN. had a great night and while, I think some others also deserved the award, FUN. definitely made me fall in love with them a little more.

Let’s talk about some performances. Rihanna–she rocked my socks. I mean, completely moved me with her latest single “Stay.” I also thoroughly enjoyed Black Keys too. But the night belonged to JT. He rocked the house. I am so excited to hear his new album. I am looking forward to March. Bring it.

J.

Trying to Stay Up on the News

My new goal is to keep up with current events more actively. I hear or read things in passing but my new goal is to become an active participant. And on that note, I have a guilty pleasure: I love Vanity Fair. It’s just a beautiful, beautiful magazine. Second confession, I LOVE PEOPLE MAG! It’s just too gossipy to ignore. Who doesn’t want to know about Zac Efron’s new hairdo or what terrible things were said on some reality tv show? In order to combat my preoccupation with pop culture, I’ve subscribed to The Economist.

If you’ve never read The Economist, let me tell you, it can become an arduous task but I won’t lie, I feel smarter already. I’m also reading a few other established publications other than the usual (WaPo, NYT). Are there any you’d suggest? Any thing I should subscribe to?

J.

PS. I also started reading the Jack Reacher novels, now you know everything about me. EEIP! Don’t judge me.

My Someone New- The Penguin

In my previous post, Happy Hour which Turned into Closing Down Bars, I mentioned meeting a new guy.  This guy now deserves a name in the blog because he has officially become my boyfriend!  We are going to call him Penguin.

In a nutshell, it went a little like this…

1. Boy/Girl meet at the bar

2.  Boy/Girl continue to talk via text and phone for a week

3.  Boy invites girl on a date and girl invites boy to go out for J’s birthday

4.  Boy invites girl to go to Deep Creek Lake for the weekend with his friends

5.  Boy asks girl to be his girlfriend

6.  Girl hesitates, but then agrees a week later

7.  And here we are!

I haven’t been this happy in my relationships…possibly ever.  It is such a nice change and I never realized how much the little things meant to me until now.  The Penguin responds to my texts within a reasonable timeframe, calls me, makes plans and expects to see me during the week/weekend.  I really am looking forward to seeing where this relationship moves and can’t wait for you all to read about it!!!

Ray