My Fears Around Being a Boss

When I started my new job, I became a boss.  I actually had someone reporting to me two jobs ago, but this seems different.  This time, I am running my own department.  I’m the head of the department with no one to go to except my CEO.  It was scary, but exciting all at the same time.

I’ve strived to be a good boss, someone that my employees appreciate in hopes that they won’t quit and go somewhere else.  One of the things my CEO stressed when I took the job was finding a way to keep my two employees happy and a part of the team.  I’m thinking about this more and more as the year is coming to a close because we will be having evaluations soon.

I hope my staff feel like they can discuss their roles and future freely with me.  Now that we have gone through an annual meeting together, I feel as if we have bonded which I believe helps in the communication.  I do feel as though I might need to grow some balls in order to communicate some of my feelings better.  Being a boss is tough!  I can’t be everyones best friend, but I sure do hope everyone likes me or at least isn’t talking a bunch of shit behind my back!!!!

Ray

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I Haven’t Found a New Work Bestie

I feel like after Annual Meeting I always bond and find my work best friend.  After this Annual Meeting, I don’t feel like I have found that 😦  I did bond and share some great memories with select staff members, but I don’t have a work bestie.  I’m just not sure it will happen for me with the group of people I am working with.

I feel like part of that is the role I am in.  I am the youngest person in an office so I feel like it is a little harder to bond with the people my age.  I suppose I don’t need a work best friend, but I do feel a little lost without one.

And on that note, I did not send save the dates to anyone at work.  I figured I would want to see how things progress before I send out invitations.  It might be tough to decide who to invite vs not.  Maybe just invite my boss and team?  That is three people and no one would judge me inviting just those people.  Or maybe I don’t invite anyone?  Decisions, decisions….I guess I still have some time since the wedding isn’t till September 2015!

Ray

Car-less

I sold my car last weekend.  It was time, but I didn’t realize how emotional I would be about finally taking the plunge.  I have had that car for almost 10 years!  Now I have nothing….well, I have the Penguin’s car.  I really want to avoid using his car because I feel like he might hold it against me in the end.  He is paying a car payment and insurance and has joked about me contributing, but if that is required I will continue to rely on public transportation.

I pretty much use public transportation 90% of my life.  To/from work…to/from dinners…I only put a couple hundred miles on my car since January.  It just wasn’t necessary to have it anymore.  The Penguin was typically driving on the weekends for errands and such.  He likes to drive and I hate it, so it just made sense.

I simply keep reassuring myself that I can rent a car, use Zip car, borrow a family members car or buy a new car if this doesn’t work out!  My car was started to have issues anyways so it seemed like the perfect time.  I sold it at Carmax.  Got exactly what I was hoping for and the process was super easy/stress free.

It feels good, but weird.

Ray

Feeling Alone at Work

It has finally hit me that I do not have friends at work.  It’s starting to get a little sad and lonely.  I have no one to confide in or complain to.  I miss my friends from my old jobs.  I just keep reminding myself that I will make friends!  It is still early and it basically took me going to my first annual meeting at each job to form bonds with people.

My annual meeting here isn’t till November so I hope I might form some bonds before that, but we shall see.  I have a site visit in July which 6 staff members are going on so there could be some good bonding time then!  BUt right now I sit in my office, eating my lunch, writing blog posts.  Sad panda.

The thing that hurt the most was when my colleague (who works for me) asked if I was going to “this lunch thing.”  I responded, “no…what lunch thing?”  His response was, “Oh, that’s awkward, never mind” and he walked away.  I never figured it out.  It wasn’t on anyone’s calendar and it could have been a good bye lunch for someone’s last day, but it definitely made everything that much sadder.

There is a bright side…I got invited to dinner next week when some offsite co-workers are in town.  So that should be fun!  I might make friends after all 🙂

Ray

Is Chivalry Dead?

Taking public transportation has brought to light a whole new world.  One where most chivalry is dead.  I take a bus and a train daily now and let me tell you…it is an all man for themselves type of environment.  People push, shove, take seats without a blink of an eye. It is amazing that only sometimes an elderly person will be offered a seat.

But then you get an occasional glimpse of chivalry.  A man might let you get onto the bus before him or offer you his seat even if he got their first.  Those moments make me smile and realize all is right in the world.  That is until some lady freaks out because she got pushed, but then proceeds to lean on me the whole train ride from Farragut West to Pentagon (on one of the hottest days of the year).  Not cool.

But on a side note, I am loving my new hunter rain boots!  I also enjoy my new waterproof Cole Haan flats.  They are a little tight though so I have to check out pinterest for a stretching technique!  I do need to get a smaller umbrella.  Mine does fit in my purse, but it gets kinda heavy!

Ray

Public Transportation Ettiquette

I have been doing the public transportation thing for 5 months now and have noticed a few things that I can’t seem to wrap my brain around.

1.  Music blaring from headphones- doesn’t it hurt your ears?  If I can hear it, you sure as crap can hear it!!!!!  Then I wonder, do they know everyone can hear their music?   Is my music that loud?

2.  Cell phone conversations….don’t have an extended conversation on your cell phone within a confined space.  I get it you might need to have a quick few minute chat, but is it necessary to talk on the phone from the minute you get on the bus until you get off?  I wouldn’t care so much if the bus wasn’t packed, but you are sitting right next to me so I can hear your whole conversation.

3.  School groups who take the metro during rush hour.  They don’t belong on the metro at that time and they take up a whole lot of space, don’t know how to hold on or get out of the way when people are getting on/off the train.

4.  Overall, I do find most people are very good about standing on the right and walking on the left when it comes to the escalators.  And most people are decent about getting onto the train and moving in to allow everyone to jam themselves into the car.

I have found the need to break down and by rain boots.  I also bought a pair of waterproof ballet flats that I am excited to try out!  I cannot wait until they arrive.  We most likely won’t have rain in the forecast for the foreseeable future now that I am fully prepared to brave the elements.

Ray

 

New Work Jitters

I began my new job on Monday, but like any new job there comes new job jitters.  Here were some of my worries as I tried to relax and lay my head to bed before my first day…

1.  New commute- making sure I arrive on time!

2.  Meeting new people

3.  Lunch!  Will they take me out, should I bring lunch, or will I just go out and get food on my own?

4.  Diving head first into learning a new work place system (ie: mail room, phone, security, computer, etc)

5.  CHANGE!!!!!

How do you handle a new job transition?  I just kept reminding myself, I have done this before and it worked out just fine!  So this too will be easy 🙂

Ray